{"id":30,"date":"2017-12-31T13:37:01","date_gmt":"2017-12-31T13:37:01","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/christowski.de\/blog\/index.php\/2017\/12\/31\/december-2017\/"},"modified":"2022-11-15T20:36:53","modified_gmt":"2022-11-15T18:36:53","slug":"december-2017","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/christowski.de\/blog\/2017\/12\/december-2017\/","title":{"rendered":"122017:\u00a0You Think You Might Not Get Through It But You Do"},"content":{"rendered":"
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On the other side of the train wagon, a man is sitting alone in a four-seat arrangement, his computer on his lap. He smiles while he types furiously; he seems completely sunken into his task. I imagine him writing a draft for his novel, or a sweet message to a loved one, but maybe also he is just calculating his tax payments, and had a successful year?<\/p>\n

While the train rattles through Berlin Grunewald, I see the day turn into night: The blue hour passed by and let the darkness come through. I don\u2019t like darkness, but sitting in a cozy train after a long day, being carried through it safely, feels okay.<\/p>\n

Looking back on 2017, my year hasn\u2019t been that great. Lots of uncertainties and bad feelings. The most dominant one was probably fear\u2014fear of all kinds of things. I managed to get rid of some of those fears (I am not scared of terrorism that much anymore, or of the movies \u201cPanic Room\u201d and \u201cSeven\u201d, as I watched them and they were not as horrible as I imagined when I was a child). But new fears developed, without control, and it takes time and hard work to get through them. I\u2019m still on it.<\/p>\n

However: As you are probably reading this in 2018 already, I don\u2019t want to write about the past. There are a lot of learnings from 2017 that will carry me through the upcoming year. The most important one is this: Emotions are not rational. Explaining a fear or a feeling doesn\u2019t always work, and it\u2019s still okay to feel it. The only way to cope with it is to be okay with it.<\/p>\n

Also: It\u2019s so soothing to make things that make you happy. I struggled a lot with a seminar paper I had to write for university, but I really wanted to succeed. So I made a project out of it; I wanted it to feel like a creative project rather than a task I was forced to do. So I made a website for the paper; made something out of it that\u2019s sharable and that fits my style\u2014as a designer, but also as a person. It reflects me and the stuff I am thinking about, that it feels good to have that represented by some sort of artifact. If you want to know what that is: Read the paper I wrote about Invisible Computers here<\/a>.<\/p>\n

Some other things that might sound really lame but made me surprisingly happy: Living in a tidy apartment. Taking care of houseplants, watching them grow. Looking outside the window, listening to the neighbors singing. Give some money to people who ask kindly on the train. Invite people for coffee instead of going out somewhere.<\/p>\n

For the upcoming year, I want to spend less time with people I am not really interested in. I want to say No to things I don\u2019t like. I want more moments that allow me to smile about something I write, draw, make, say, see\u2014the guy on the train, with his laptop, during that blue hour, was a good inspiration.<\/p>\n

Have a great start into the new year. As last year: Make it count<\/a>\u2014but this time: don\u2019t stress. We all should stress much less.<\/p>\n

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